A Little Something

Wonder

Hey guys, so this one isn’t that great or profound or anything really but I just can’t sleep and I’m wondering about this. I’ll try to upload something for you to read either today or tomorrow. Sorry I haven’t posted. Things have just been crazy.

Drizzle

I told you I was in love with the rain; you told me you preferred sunny days. I told you how it reminded me of souls, especially my own. How it could be calm one minute then raging the next just like the raindrops falling. You said you hated getting wet and having your plans ruined. At the time I knew I was already ruining your plans so I brushed it all aside. I thought you could grow to love me, to love the rain. I thought we could be like those rare occasions when it’s a light drizzle and the sun still shines, but my soul was never meant to remain at such a steady pace I guess, and you were never meant to shine during a storm.

Worth It

“Don’t tell me I’m worth it because the last person that did lied. Don’t tell me I’m worth it because then I become a number. This is when I get a price tag; it tells me that I’m here at some cost. The moment you say it, I become a credit card and all credit cards get maxed out eventually. It means I’ll suddenly have a limited number of chances, of mess ups, of over reactions before you throw in the towel and say you’re done with me. It means I become work. That I can bring you pain, suffering, grief, hassles, hardships. Instead tell me I’m priceless. This way I know I give you something money can’t buy; that there’s something about me that makes your life better or maybe even something I give you that you’ve decided you can’t live without. This way I know that I don’t require work, just a lot of effort.”

-Heather Winkler

Just Thinking

We Can’t Do It All

Friendly reminder for those of you struggling to help someone who is weighing you down. Please don’t let them drown you right along with them.

Things Learned

I learned that you don’t need water to feel like you’re drowning. Not only that, but that you could die from a completely different type of thirst and that you can be hungry for something more than just food. I figured out that people can die long before they are ever even buried. I found out that in life you don’t need fire to burn bridges either. Nor do you need wings to actually fly. I found out that you don’t always need air to breathe. I discovered that you don’t really need the moon and stars for light in the darkness. And that at the end of the day we’re not really afraid of the dark, but what’s in it. That we’re not afraid of heights, but of falling. I learned that your world can end just to begin again. That sometimes forever can take place within a second. I realized that good things don’t really come to those who wait, but to those who want something so badly that they can’t bring themselves to sit still. That it’s possible for home to be a person and not a place but at the same time it’s also possible for a person to be a drug instead. I grew to understand that all monsters are indeed human and that you don’t need to love yourself first before you can truly love someone else. That in the end, hell and heaven isn’t a place that you go but something you actually carry around with you and we are our own angels and demons.

Because I’m in my Feelings and Can’t Sleep

Heavy Thoughts

Words of Warning